1st day in school
you know what?
i thnk my phone just
proved to me that its waterproof
like what people say,
and i never believed
i just knocked my bottle down
and splash, on my phone
but, nothing happened.
phew.
i cared more about the table and the
keyboard
anyway
i am not not not not supposed to be here.
at all.
not supposed to be online
on the computer table.
though its ironically my study table
but, ah wells.
i am not supposed to be here
im supposed to be planning my schedule
for whatever's left of the 13 weeks to
end year
darn fast right
we had like 4+months to mid year
and 2/2/3months to end year
madness.
die.
study.study.study
that's what my life is going to revolve around
bye bye
happiness,
fun,
play.
welcome, (groans)study.
hmmmm.
missing peawit and the only guy
This world april 5 2005
(school's english journal)
this world. it drains me. all these, they're meaningless.
all the competitions, the studying, the superficial friends.
dont you feel that they give you a lot of pressure?
dont yo just want to sleep and never wake up?
it leaves you spiritually, mentally, physically and emotinally drained.
i feel like yelling'do not label me, cause you dont own me!' im sick of this world,
some people in it, selfish people, to be exact, they're just not mature enough.
it's so difficult to love your enemies, to forgive them, when all you
feel like doing is giving them a tight slap.
have you ever felt this way?
so lost in this world.
so sick of the things in
of not belonging.
i thnk that a christian perspective changes everything.
evertime im not happy, i tink of this, and it motivates me.
If Jesus could go through all that, the persecution and cruxification,
why cant i?
in a nutshell,
i never knew i could write such english
but i tink i lost it already
and i cant remember why i write that entry,
like baring my soul to Mrs Wong and the
head of english department.
anyway
1st day of school.
ms chung changed the class's seating arrangement.
the timetable totally changed.
3 teacher's changed.
i dont like the new seating arrangement.
me :ms chung, i dont like to sit in the front row, put me to the back
ms chung: but vanessa, i love you in the front row.
i really dont want to sit in the front row.
plus, no fan.
plus, no freedom
i want to sit at my old seat!
right smack middle of the class
beside rui qing
surrounded by 3 fans!
they're my best friend.
put me back man!
i cut my hair today!
thanks Gwen for accoumpanying me
yay!!!!
haha
let's hope there's not going to be any protest.
from Joanna, or jessica or weicheng
or any church friends who think short hair
is so not me.
i love it.
why cant you/
blach
i shant come online.
and if i had wings; i would fly.